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If someone would have asked me, "if you could live in a song, what song would that be?"   This would be my answer. Why this song in particular? There is no why.

I never understood when people give advice about expectations. I t usually goes something like "no expectations, no pain" or a variation of that, that somehow demonizes expectations. This kind of conversation usually hovers first at an emotional tale of loss, then someone bright says, "the problem is that you expect too much" I say whenever you're doing something that's worth doing, you'll always have expectations in the back of your head. The more worthy a goal is to you, the more expectations you'll have. You can't just train your mind to "not" expect. You'll lose everytime. Maybe the point is to expect. The right things first. Have a healthy sense of what to expect. especially at love. Sometimes you're going to get hurt. You're going to feel pain. If it doesn't feel that way, don't be weirded out, that's a good thing. If it does feel painful, that's a signal to your brain. Assess and re-evaluate. ...

“A dense, artistic kind of imperfection stimulates your consciousness, keeps you alert. ... I can feel the limits of what humans are capable of - that a certain type of perfection can only be realized through a limitless accumulation of the imperfect. And personally I find that encouraging.” -Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

I feel like a kid from one of those psychology experiments where they leave a marshmallow to see if the kid eats it or not in exchange for supposedly something better. Damn, this is hard!

" My good intentions just keep sliding by the wayside But it's high tide and they get washed away with time Til everything's gone" Lyrics from: Bayside -  Sinking and Swimming On Long Island

"Now here's the tricky part. In contrast to high self-esteem, with its tendency toward entitlement, people with high self-value necessarily value others. Where self-esteem is hierarchical, self-value is about equality. Here's why: When we value others, we value ourselves more—we elevate our sense of well-being and facilitate our health, growth, and development. (Think of how you feel when you’re loving and compassionate to those you love.)  When we devalue someone else, we devalue ourselves—our sense of well being deteriorates, we violate our basic humanity to some degree, and become more narrow and rigid in perspective, all of which impair growth and development. (Think of how you feel when you devalue loved ones.) In other words, when you value someone else you experience a state of value—vitality, meaning, and purpose—and when you devalue someone else, you experience a devalued state, wherein the will to live well becomes less important than the will to contro...

Hi Stranger, If you're reading this, i have no idea why you're reading this. Anyway, you're two sentences in already so might as well read on. Or not. It doesn't really matter. Just to be clear, you're wasting time reading this. There is nothing here that will give value to you in whatever time or universe you may be in.  It's kind of stupid. What is? This. What? Reading letters not intended for you. Well, it's addressed to stranger, so it's intended for anybody who happens to pass by.  What is the point of this? I have no idea. Why make one then? This is still a letter right? Yea, i guess Why is this reverting to a dialogue? Just read damn it. So stranger, really, if you're reading this, you better have a good reason for it. This will not be uplifting or inspiring in any sort of way. It will just zap on. You will have forgotten it five seconds after you close this window. The point of this is that there is none. At least, i can'...

Have some faith don't you know that this is not a race and we are not contenders now Lyrics from: This Town Needs Guns – It's Not True Rufus, Don't Listen To The Hat

For once, this is not a regret of not doing something. This i'll count to one of my failures this year and I don't mind it. I realize that this has taught me a lot and having these small moments have been a treasure for me. When you're a single young-professional kid, the expectations of you are quite varied. Like the view is that you're only having fun, you're young, you get to do what ever you want.  Your whole life is ahead of you.  You don't get to say that it's hard. But it's hard, it gets really hard some times.  It's hard maintaining relationships, it's even harder to be in one. Like the process that it takes from trying and finally deciding is an amazing thing. It's amazing because one way or another it either continues great or ends badly. I am way too young to be thinking about settling, but it's there. It's a tiny thought that nags every once in a long while.  I don't know where i skipped a part about having...

I'm a grown man with the sensitivity of a teen girl. It must be true then that a heightened sense of awareness brings forth a heightened sense of sensitivity as well. i wonder why this is. Maybe because once you've learned to focus on the present, to just stay in the moment. Everything is meaningful. Everything is active. Not necessarily the really meaningful things, but life in general suddenly has an amplifier. Like a wide spectrum of an emotional range suddenly became available. I guess caring has its downsides. And not caring has it perks? I dont think so. Given the choice of the two, i think actual caring for people benefits everyone in the long run, being indifferent just leaves you alone and wondering what just happened.

Conversations that start with this.. You just know it's not going to end well. "it sucks, i understand because i know how it feels to not feel welcome in someone else's life. it's like that feeling you get when you're in a house that you're not quite welcome. you're the stranger and that's it."

People are always going to say things People are always going to have something to say It's a basic human right To deny or accept everything is a disservice Sometimes, it's just noise Sometimes, it's just a sugarcoat The idea is to give value to that which that gives value

"I could care less about this game. I'd rather win, but I want to win the right way" -Gregg Popovich An emphasis on the process that is more important than the result. Meaning it doesn't matter if you win or lose, as long as you do the right things along the way. Substituting words. I could care less about this life. I'd rather be happy, but I want to be happy the right way.